Something Different
It just occurred to me, that despite describing this blog as being oriented more towards gender and such...I've almost exclusively talked about work, lmao?
Not that I'm going to do a deep dive into it today, but there are a few things I want to talk about.
So anyway, I canceled my Folx membership last year, as I was satisfied with my body. I had the bottom growth I desired, facial hair (I love my sideburns), and a deeper voice. The plan was never to fully transition; I'm not a man and barely consider myself to be masc. I'm firmly in the agender / gendervoid camp.
I'd still love to get top surgery (or a breast reduction at the very least), but I fear I missed the boat on that one. This current administration wants to kill off trans people, and are already making it hard for trans kids to access puberty blockers and care in general. But maybe I'll get lucky, who knows? I'm fortunate enough to not have dysphoria regarding my chest; it's just really fucking inconvenient since I'm top heavy. I'd also love to have my uterus and ovaries discarded, because periods also fucking suck, doubly so as I have endo and anemia thanks to heavy periods.
Inhabiting pre-sculpted female bodies sucks ass. Not having the periods for over a year was nice. I'm really going to miss it, but at least my iron is at a healthy range. Life has been...pretty damn good.
I am on my last bottle of testosterone, and have been spreading it out to once or twice a week, when it used to be every day. I'll run out by the end of February, by my estimate. And this is longer than I thought it would last! I expected to be out by the end of December at the latest.
During that year and a half on testosterone (started 06/03/2023), I put on quite a bit of muscle, which I at first mistook as fat, since my weight increased. And of course some of the fat persists on my arms, but there's clearly muscle under there. You see it when I flex my arms. My legs got the better deal overall, and are nice and firm!
I'd also like to note that a lot of what I heard about testosterone was false. It doesn't make you aggressive and abusive, or whatever else the stereotypes claim. My mood and depression (which can cause angry outbursts) improved, in conjunction with medication for my OCD. I will miss that relief it gave me, but I've lived with depression for most of my life.
You adapt.
Just as I plan to do for this year and the next.